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Jan. 6th, 2011 03:19 pm
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G and I are going to have a meat free week.

I did used to be a veggie when we met and have been a vegan (for 6 months!) in the past but would love suggestions for things that we could eat during this week.  We don't eat meat every day (I don't think it's good for you to eat meat all the time) and I'm sure I could cobble stuff together but if anyone knows any really tasty receipies please let me know. When I say meat free I also mean know fish.
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I'm doing Race for Life this year but I hate asking for Sponsorship. So far I've done it by leaving a general notice on Facebook and putting up a notice in the staffroom. I think I'll have to say something in staff briefing on Friday that way I'm not targetting anyone in particular. I set a very modest target. G is gonna take a sponsorship form to work and hockey so hopefully I'll reach my target I'm pretty sure I will. It's only £80.
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[Error: unknown template qotd] Not so much resolutions as targets for myself in 2008
1. Take a holiday abroad (I missed mine this year and I'm bloody determined to have a proper break next year)
2. Learn to drive and get a car.
3. Move in with the gorgeous G.
4. Only take one sugar in my tea.
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[Error: unknown template qotd] Not so much resolutions as targets for myself in 2008
1. Take a holiday abroad (I missed mine this year and I'm bloody determined to have a proper break next year)
2. Learn to drive and get a car.
3. Move in with the gorgeous G.
4. Only take one sugar in my tea.
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passed my drivers theory test again today. this time I'm determined not to let in tun out. I'm one step closer to living with G!
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passed my drivers theory test again today. this time I'm determined not to let in tun out. I'm one step closer to living with G!
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1.My Mum - she is a good friend and I talk to her nearly evry day. She loves me unconditionally and I know she likes who I am and is proud of me.
2. G - he loves me and cares for me even tho I'm a div sometimes. I love the fact that he respects me and doesn't force me into anything. He works with me and I am always happier when I am in his company.
3. Being able to read - It's amazing how many kids I teach that just can't do it to any decent standard. I love reading it's such an excellent escape and I think I'd go crazy without it.
4. Not being an only child - it is a blessing and a curse. A curse coz she is a bit loopy and I have to look after her, you also have that comparison crap and sibling rivelry. (There is a huge photo of her in our house and I swear not one of me until my graduation!) A blessing coz she sometimes looks after me, I know that actually she does love me and we deal with stuff as a team.
5. Having had John in my life - he taught me loads and I know people hate gypsies for whatever reason but he taught me loads about them and I loved that. He told so many stories and loved me SO much and although it hurts so bad that I have lost that it was better to have had it and lost it than to never have had it at all. He was ahuge influence on me and since I like the way I am coz he loved me that way I will forever be greatful for that.
6.Dad - things have been rough between us but he is a nice man at heart and taught me to be kind and expect kindness. And as we according to freud seek someonee like our father then he has set the bar high in some ways. He also stands up for the under dog and I get my love of animals from him.
7. Being born in the U.K - where I am free to do as I choose, vote, get and education. It may not always be the best but compared to some places we are SO lucky. Also somewhere like Norway where it is so dark would truly do my nut in.
8. Animals - They just make life better, pets, wildlife, birds and stuff withput them life would be rubbish.
9. My friends - especially Jules and Loni as they truly make me smile and we have the best times.
10. Having enough money - when I was young we had sweet F A and I am by no means loaded AT ALL but it's nice to be able to eat nice things and be warm and not worry that the electric has been cut off and there is no food in the house. Money cannot make you happy but the lack of it is truly miserable.
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1.My Mum - she is a good friend and I talk to her nearly evry day. She loves me unconditionally and I know she likes who I am and is proud of me.
2. G - he loves me and cares for me even tho I'm a div sometimes. I love the fact that he respects me and doesn't force me into anything. He works with me and I am always happier when I am in his company.
3. Being able to read - It's amazing how many kids I teach that just can't do it to any decent standard. I love reading it's such an excellent escape and I think I'd go crazy without it.
4. Not being an only child - it is a blessing and a curse. A curse coz she is a bit loopy and I have to look after her, you also have that comparison crap and sibling rivelry. (There is a huge photo of her in our house and I swear not one of me until my graduation!) A blessing coz she sometimes looks after me, I know that actually she does love me and we deal with stuff as a team.
5. Having had John in my life - he taught me loads and I know people hate gypsies for whatever reason but he taught me loads about them and I loved that. He told so many stories and loved me SO much and although it hurts so bad that I have lost that it was better to have had it and lost it than to never have had it at all. He was ahuge influence on me and since I like the way I am coz he loved me that way I will forever be greatful for that.
6.Dad - things have been rough between us but he is a nice man at heart and taught me to be kind and expect kindness. And as we according to freud seek someonee like our father then he has set the bar high in some ways. He also stands up for the under dog and I get my love of animals from him.
7. Being born in the U.K - where I am free to do as I choose, vote, get and education. It may not always be the best but compared to some places we are SO lucky. Also somewhere like Norway where it is so dark would truly do my nut in.
8. Animals - They just make life better, pets, wildlife, birds and stuff withput them life would be rubbish.
9. My friends - especially Jules and Loni as they truly make me smile and we have the best times.
10. Having enough money - when I was young we had sweet F A and I am by no means loaded AT ALL but it's nice to be able to eat nice things and be warm and not worry that the electric has been cut off and there is no food in the house. Money cannot make you happy but the lack of it is truly miserable.
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So no G at all tonight which is crap. He says he still feels ill. Why do I always have to text him first. Does he get fed up with that? Does he like it but is just shit coz he's a man? Did he cheat and laying low?
Now I'm here cooking Pork chops alone and I know I'm gonna get melacholy.
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So no G at all tonight which is crap. He says he still feels ill. Why do I always have to text him first. Does he get fed up with that? Does he like it but is just shit coz he's a man? Did he cheat and laying low?
Now I'm here cooking Pork chops alone and I know I'm gonna get melacholy.
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G was meant to be coming over today but he was out with the hockey lads last nite and says he thinks he ate something funny and is feeling unwell. This could all be true and probably is; he does suffer with his tummy but I started to feel paranoid. I know it's silly but I though he could have someone there and he's just keeping me sweet. That actually he's not ill but with someone else. I know this is silly but I still FEEL worried. It's so hard to know something and to match up your feelings to it. He text me at 1 last nite to say he misses me so it's very unlikely he's with someone else.

I know I sound like a psycho but actually I trust G more than anyone else I've ever been with but I do believe people are fundamentally untrustworthy and I include myself in that. He doesn't know I have little fits of paranoia like this and I do control them so well now. I know it's me. Anyhoo if he did cheat there would be fuck all I can do. If he's going to he's going to and there is nowt I can do. We're happy when we are together and he wants me to move in and stuff so I know I'm being crazy. It's crap when u are down coz it's hard to get things in perspective.
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G was meant to be coming over today but he was out with the hockey lads last nite and says he thinks he ate something funny and is feeling unwell. This could all be true and probably is; he does suffer with his tummy but I started to feel paranoid. I know it's silly but I though he could have someone there and he's just keeping me sweet. That actually he's not ill but with someone else. I know this is silly but I still FEEL worried. It's so hard to know something and to match up your feelings to it. He text me at 1 last nite to say he misses me so it's very unlikely he's with someone else.

I know I sound like a psycho but actually I trust G more than anyone else I've ever been with but I do believe people are fundamentally untrustworthy and I include myself in that. He doesn't know I have little fits of paranoia like this and I do control them so well now. I know it's me. Anyhoo if he did cheat there would be fuck all I can do. If he's going to he's going to and there is nowt I can do. We're happy when we are together and he wants me to move in and stuff so I know I'm being crazy. It's crap when u are down coz it's hard to get things in perspective.
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It's Saturday night and I'm indoors with a can of Carling watching some channel 4 programme about a crackpot 'scientist' who thinks he can make us live forever. So presumably I can spend an eterity of Saturday nights doing much the same as tonight.

I'm so bored but am also apathetic, extreme ennui in world of Mcmurphy this evening.

In other news I'm still seeing the gorgeous G and we're going away for a few days over half term. Going to a little village in Cornwall which I last went to when I was 11. I've had reoccurring dreams about it ever since. I can't wait. He's great and I adore him.

Have seen M periodically but no longer wish to, somethings that had happened between us have resurfaced in my head and I'm angry about them. This is wrong coz I should have got more angry about them at the time, but I guess the relationship just had me at a low. When I think of how I reacted to somethings I realise I was a weak fool and for someone who said/says he loves me he was rat, a super rat even. And no he didn't cheat. Worse.

But enough. Went to see 'Pan's Labyrinth' the other week (living in the arse end of nowhere we're always the last to hear/get anything interesting but I'm lucky that the local cinema showed it at all!) It was wicked.

Off to dance round my room
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It's Saturday night and I'm indoors with a can of Carling watching some channel 4 programme about a crackpot 'scientist' who thinks he can make us live forever. So presumably I can spend an eterity of Saturday nights doing much the same as tonight.

I'm so bored but am also apathetic, extreme ennui in world of Mcmurphy this evening.

In other news I'm still seeing the gorgeous G and we're going away for a few days over half term. Going to a little village in Cornwall which I last went to when I was 11. I've had reoccurring dreams about it ever since. I can't wait. He's great and I adore him.

Have seen M periodically but no longer wish to, somethings that had happened between us have resurfaced in my head and I'm angry about them. This is wrong coz I should have got more angry about them at the time, but I guess the relationship just had me at a low. When I think of how I reacted to somethings I realise I was a weak fool and for someone who said/says he loves me he was rat, a super rat even. And no he didn't cheat. Worse.

But enough. Went to see 'Pan's Labyrinth' the other week (living in the arse end of nowhere we're always the last to hear/get anything interesting but I'm lucky that the local cinema showed it at all!) It was wicked.

Off to dance round my room

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